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What do you do when life’s got you down and work puts the screws to you? Why, take a few days off and grab a nice traditional Filipino breakfast to help you regroup. If the greasiness alone doesn’t pick you up, knowing that the cholesterol in your arteries rises a few points is bound to make you feel a bit better.

As many of you know, I’ve been a little down lately. I’m getting to the point where it’s better now, but I struggle with it every now and then. Sometimes, things don’t go as planned – or hell, even as expected – but in the end, we find a way to make it work. You put things behind you and realize that in the end, it was probably how it was meant to be.

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Ahh Jericho, we hardly knew you. Well, sad to say another one of the few shows I watch on television has been canceled. I don’t watch much television these days. The few shows I did enjoy were either canceled or have ended their runs. I can never take Fox seriously now simply because they cancel every show I get into and keep the shows that dumb down Americans – hooray for reality television!

My problem lately has been a lack of things to say. I take it back – a lack of anything new to say. I could write about my nostalgia of an easier, more simple time but that I’ve said ad nauseam. I try to write about things that interest me, things I read in the news or things that pop into my head but I fear that I’m losing something in the translation. I’ve become a bad story teller and I’ve lost my way with words. I forget I’m writing for an audience and start writing simply the things that come into my head. And I think that methodology is beginning to fail me. I’ve lost touch with the way my life was supposed to work.

Perhaps it’s many things – the newness of it all is still settling in. I’m disconcerted with the distance that I’m feeling with my friends and family but at the same trying to find a place in my life that can accommodate it all. I’m putting things aside in the hopes of a different future. Of a future that will help me grow out of the things that haunt my past. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to give up all of the things of my past, I just need to find a way to let my past meet my future and become something of a more solid present. But in the end who am I to say what I’m doing is right. I will probably look back at this a year from now and laugh at my own stupidity. I mean, what else can I do “… get jobs in offices and wake up for the morning commute?”.